Post by FoxtrotZero on Sept 3, 2011 22:05:49 GMT
This is an advance notice that i'm going to be away for a long while, effective as of this Tuesday (September 6th) - the third time in my history of this forum. Unlike the previous, this absence is intentional.
I'm going to be fairly blunt. My addiction to electronics is apparant. And while i've always owned up to that, i've never truly acted on it. This isn't a simple matter of me spending too much time in front of my computer, it's a question of my health and well-being as a whole, and it's taken more than my own willpower to make this decision, a fact that i'm willing to admit has put me into tears.
The restrictions being imposed on me are absolute; I am not permitted to use my computer or my xbox whatsoever during the school year (with the inevitable exception on the former for schoolwork). I'm not new to this concept, as my problems became apparent last school year, and similar drastic measures were imposed on me. Adjusting to the situation was hard, but possible, and i'm now better equipped for the situation.
Obviously, I have vacations throughout the school year (though my school track is designed to minimize breaks during the year and dumping the extra time into summer), and I can assume, but not guarantee, that these breaks from the rigors of school also mean a break in my restriction, so with that said, I may not dissapear, never to be seen again until next summer. Likewise, it's possible that if I can figure out how to manage my work and personal life (read: learn to put my work first and everything else last) that my restriction may be loosened (I certainly don't see it being completely lifted, and for good reason), but I cannot guarantee this, and likewise I do not place my hopes in it.
The Internet, I suppose, is kind of like a city - a large city, like New York - where people are always visiting and doing things, but nobody actually lives there. I suppose i'm one of the exceptions to this rule; I can't remember when I came to arrive at this place, but it's since become my digital home, if you will. It's common for me to have this website open in the background, or default to it when doing nothing else, where most people don't have that sort of mentality on the internet. Likewise, the people here have become very close friends of mine, despite me having never met them in person, and while I cannot help but find that strange, I am likewise incapable of questioning the depth of this friendship. I guess its just my internal collision between the world that raised me and the world my generation seems to be building.
And with that said, this is Goodbye.
But I will return to say Hello.
[/cheapexit]
I'm going to be fairly blunt. My addiction to electronics is apparant. And while i've always owned up to that, i've never truly acted on it. This isn't a simple matter of me spending too much time in front of my computer, it's a question of my health and well-being as a whole, and it's taken more than my own willpower to make this decision, a fact that i'm willing to admit has put me into tears.
The restrictions being imposed on me are absolute; I am not permitted to use my computer or my xbox whatsoever during the school year (with the inevitable exception on the former for schoolwork). I'm not new to this concept, as my problems became apparent last school year, and similar drastic measures were imposed on me. Adjusting to the situation was hard, but possible, and i'm now better equipped for the situation.
Obviously, I have vacations throughout the school year (though my school track is designed to minimize breaks during the year and dumping the extra time into summer), and I can assume, but not guarantee, that these breaks from the rigors of school also mean a break in my restriction, so with that said, I may not dissapear, never to be seen again until next summer. Likewise, it's possible that if I can figure out how to manage my work and personal life (read: learn to put my work first and everything else last) that my restriction may be loosened (I certainly don't see it being completely lifted, and for good reason), but I cannot guarantee this, and likewise I do not place my hopes in it.
The Internet, I suppose, is kind of like a city - a large city, like New York - where people are always visiting and doing things, but nobody actually lives there. I suppose i'm one of the exceptions to this rule; I can't remember when I came to arrive at this place, but it's since become my digital home, if you will. It's common for me to have this website open in the background, or default to it when doing nothing else, where most people don't have that sort of mentality on the internet. Likewise, the people here have become very close friends of mine, despite me having never met them in person, and while I cannot help but find that strange, I am likewise incapable of questioning the depth of this friendship. I guess its just my internal collision between the world that raised me and the world my generation seems to be building.
And with that said, this is Goodbye.
But I will return to say Hello.
[/cheapexit]
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